A Semester of Skinny

22nd July 2011

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Contrary to popular belief…

I’m still here.

Ten pounds heavier than I was the last time I blogged, a mere two months ago.

That being said, I’m having the single most kickass summer of my entire life. I’ve never been happier. When I look in the mirror, my smile literally radiates. It’s incredible. I feel absolutely amazing and wouldn’t change it for the world.

For the past 2.5 months, I’ve skipped the gym in favor of hanging out with my friends. I’ve passed on salads and ordered fries. I’ve eaten like absolute shit and sat sedentary on my ass for hours at a time. I’ve drunk hundreds of empty alcoholic calories on way too many occassions. And I’ve loved every second of it. Seriously, I’m living the life, and I do not regret a single decision I’ve made this summer. Yes, I’m back up to 175. Yes, my stomach is starting to protrude yet again. But the confidence I worked so hard to achieve this semester is as-of-yet untarnished. I’m having the time of my life with the kickassiest group of human beings I’ve ever encountered, and life is utterly, unabashedly, phenomenal.

But, for some reason, this past week I’ve been in a funk. I’ve sat at home instead of hanging out with friends. I’ve been lying around lazily with no ambition to do much of anything. It’s remniscient of the depression that hung over me in high school. When I get into these moods, I do a lot of self-reflection. In this past week I’ve been trying to pinpoint the vacancy in my life that has emerged of late. I’m doing great at my job, but without schoolwork or personal projects, I’m feeling pretty lame. I’m not really working towards anything. I can’t measure my progress. I’m in productivity limbo.

It hit me today while I downed my second slice of pizza drizzled with ranch dressing (last semester’s version of myself is cringing, too). I need to regain control of my diet and exercise. I still want to be thinner. I want to be more confident in a bathing suit. I want to be healthy and in shape again.

SO, it starts today. I’m unearthing my tumblr because, as much as I hate to admit it, it keeps me accountable. There were so many instances last semester where I’d pass on a slice of cake because I felt as if I’d be letting my meager number of followers down. I’m not sure why, but I feel obligated to succeed when people are aware of my efforts. I hate failure, but when weightloss was my own secret, I was only letting myself down. I love tumblr’s fitspo community because we can encourage each other and keep each other in-check. For me, it’s a support system with no risk of embarassment, but a plethora of encouragement.

I’m passing up a movie date with my friends to go to the gym (is it weird that I actually miss the elliptical?) & later tonight, I’ll act as the DD and pass up any calories I’d usually consume in alcohol. Summer’s been flawless, but there’s no reason that I can’t maintain this level of happiness while still losing weight.

I’m BACK & better than ever!

6th June 2011

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“I am suddenly comsumed by nostalgia for the little girl who was me, who loved the fields and believed in God, who spent winter days home sick from school reading Nancy Drew and sucking menthol cough drops, who could keep a secret.” - The Time Traveler’s Wife

24th May 2011

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update

I’ve officially completed my Semester of Skinny.

In total, I’ve lost 25 pounds and have gone from 190 to 165. I’m still 15 pounds away from my goal weight, and I’m hoping to get there by August. Summer’s been treating me great so far - friends, work, and exercise have revitalized my previously mundane existence and for the first time in a long time, I’m very happy. Luck has been on my side - within the first two weeks of summer I drank and/or smoked nearly every night and wasn’t really counting calories or exercising regularly. But the routine that I’ve created for myself over this past semester paved my way to success. I still made smart choices and had fun while keeping my weight in-check. After 4 months of diet & exercise, I’m at the point where I don’t have to blog everyday. I don’t have to count every single calorie that enters my body, and I don’t have to force myself to work out. I simply make good choices, eat good food, and MOVE! Thankfully, so far I’ve been successful & I hope I can keep it that way.

A URL change is eventually in order but for now I’m reflecting on a semester of skinny with a smile on my face. I hope you’ve all been doing well, & are pumped for a Summer of Skinny!

3rd May 2011

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closetfullofdreams asked: Try strawberry chobani! It's my favorite, better than the vanilla. If you don't like the vanilla I don't suggest you try the plain anytime soon haha

i have the strawberry banana in my fridge, & i’ll probably have it as a snack sometime tomorrow. i’m excited because i thought it was just flavored yogurt, but there’s actually fruit on the bottom! i’ll keep you posted, & thanks for the response :)

3rd May 2011

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i’m trying to make a concerted effort to like yogurt. currently it grosses me the hell out, but i know it’s good for digestive health so i’m really trying. i bought some vanilla chobani (i’ve heard rave reviews about it), tasted it, and was instantly nauseated. i threw some splenda, cinnamon, & almonds in it, and it wasn’t terrrrrrible. still not my favorite thing, but hopefully i can experiment more & get to the point where i actually like it.

ps. i’m down to 167! for a total weightloss of 23 pounds.